i’ve definitely disappeared! AGH. 
i haven’t been on a scale in forever and to be quite honest i’m afraid to.
i definitely know that i’ve gained almost all of the weight that I had lost. eee so frightening how easy it is. my body is definitely punishing me for it. I never have any energy. I’ve been getting a lot of headaches and I’ve been sick to my stomach lately. 

I’m trying to get back on the bandwagon and hopefully can keep up the good work. It’s extremely difficult being able to eat healthy and make the decisions when:

a. you don’t have money.
when ever i’m with paco and we only have 5 dollars, we tend to go for a 5 dollar pizza or dollar menu. it’s just extremely rough right now and i’m hoping to find a job or just try to manage what little money we have better.

b. you’re the only one trying to make better decisions.
BUT THEN AGAIN IM ONLY MAKING EXCUSES ;)

i need to just focus on me. even if my love for tortas, pizza, cheese fries, and chocolate chip cookies is strong. i have to be stronger! ha.

just wanted to have an update since i’ve totes been MIA.